Point

Past; I was at a point where I cried at the environment and it stared at me in silence, I was at a point where love was the order of the day, I was at a point where all I ever wanted was God, peace and family, I was at a point where I was scared of death, I was at a point where I wanted to grow up and be like daddy; fearless as he was, there was a point where I wanted so badly to follow my dreams and passion; to be the best I could be , I  was  a point where my heart was lovely and red; Present; I am at a point where I forgot about my dreams my passion and even my hope, I am a point where I didn’t know if I wanted love anymore, I am at a point where I left all I wanted before ‘God ,peace and family’ and wanted women, fame and fashion,  I am at a point where my emotions no longer made me feel at my very best but became a knife constantly stabbing me on the heart, I am at the point where tears wouldn’t come forth at my world being broken down, I am at a point where I wished I hadn’t grown up, I am at a point where indecision covers my mind like the puff from a smoker, I am at the point where life has lost its value and death becomes enticing as the white peace flag, I am at a point where I don’t know if I believe in the supernatural, I am at a point where my heart loses its lovely red nature and becomes black, Future; I would be at a point where I look back and it would be full of regrets, I would be at a point where all the pleasures of life would seem worthless, I would be at a  point where I would wish I could start it all over again from the first point, and soon I would be at a point where I shut my eyes permanently, peacefully and the so ever silent environment cried.